I have noticed

Seems all things start out really strong but in due time they fall off get shorter in importance and in the end just end. That is what happens most of the time. Blogging is the same. I try to keep a written report with a journal by my bedside but even that takes to much time to keep up with daily. So is it important. Yes, I need to know when I go to appointments, when I take medications, when I have things planned and the end results of those plans. I am going to start a new and try to do better at keeping track my day planner looks like something from another planet but in and of it's self it helps some but it is so chicken scratched up it's hard to make heads of tales out of it. I saw Dr. Victor M. Manon yesterday we are going to wait for 8 weeks and try again with the implants. He seems to be a very up front honest doctor. You can't just run from doctor to doctor so I told him even though the infection cased me a lot of trouble and pain he was not off the hook. He started it and he will make it right. I think I made myself very plain and I think he understood I wanted it done right. I have contacted the Medical examiners board to check him out. I had done research on him before going but I have 8 weeks to do more so I wont stop doing whats best until I find some reason that he should do it I am sticking with the original plans. Implants are no joking matter and you better have a good doctor. How can you trust these people do you know them and it's hard to get someone to say no he is not good or don't go there. Unless they have personally used them they don't know. Then what about all the times things go perfect and all is well but then there was this one time that it didn't and it caused that doctor's name to snowball into the black ball pit. It's a guessing game and very difficult to know what to do. Roland is having the same issues with his eyes. Seeing doctors upon other doctors recommendations and with him there was no time to explore if we were using someone good or bad. We had to pray put it in God's hands and run with the ball. We do that alot. It works out pretty well. I had no way of know I would have a massive infection and neither did he. I just hope in the end it works out. He gave me clindamycin for the infection 150 mg every 8 hours for about 2 weeks started it one the 16th of June. I also started taking Amphetame SLT 10 mg to help with the excessive triedness. Alprazolam .25 which is not enough to help with anything. I am going to ask him to up it to 1 MG. I take Propoxyphne-N APAP 100MG for pain that's generic Darvocet. All the others make me itch. I really can't take anything with morphin in it that is really bad. I am taking a B-complex, Adrenal vitamins, probotics, Advil and remember I AM the person who hates having to take any kind of pill. This all started in June around fathers day with my vacation so to speak to New Mexico. Thanks to a wedding I had promised to do some of the set up on I returned quickly, started medications and have tried to go on with my life and make it a better place to be. So far so good. Who knew I would have to give in to taking medications so I just didn't go nuts. At least I don't feel like I am walking on egg shells all the time. It's a new starting point but at least you can have a new starting point and that's always a good thing.

It's been a while

I used to blog my prayers. Then I stopped blogging all together. Then I started writing them in notebooks I couldn't ever find when I wanted them but over these past months my life makes Hurricane Ike seem likes childs play. Who could even start to remember what happened why it happened and all the details. That's why blogging is important even if it is time consuming and the spell checker sucks. I went in on Wed. June 2nd to have my dental implant surgery. Paid thousands of dollars and still don't have the implants but the base work is done. Painful oh yes! My jaw is the size of a baseball. I look like somebody really worked me over and I thank God I was under full sedation when all of this went on. Not like the horrible ordeal that Roland faced with his eye surgery..... eyes wide open please! It's normal to swell and bleed, I was just told that on the phone. Who knew?? I am giving it a week to see if the swelling goes down. Don't read things on the enternet when your ill you will find the most drastic stories known to mankind. Which before your surgery you didn't read them only the ones that say what a great choice it is. I still have faith in my choices for a doctor but sure seems like a lot of over kill for some teeth to be replaced. Don't loose your bones they are hard to find again!!! Most older people have a lot of bone gone already and if you have implants it just goes with the deal. I have spent the last couple of days in bed. I am working, reading and watching Netflix to keep me sane. Blogging as well works to give you something to do while you heal. Roland is cooking me a mashed potatoe dinner. I thank God for him and his help, it will be nothing but soft foods for several months. I have a free standing tooth I have to be very careful with because I don't want it to tilt or be damaged in anyway. I love the way doctors tell you things. They come in and say honey we are going to start now don't be worried. You know that's the first sign waking up will not be a great exerience for you. I know these things heal in due time but come on 6 months from now I get to do this all again?? What joy my life has in it! I can't even think about doing the top teeth. Massive swelling I will look like Sponge Bob. Now I know why woman alway go for breast implants before they do anything else. They need to see something positive before they go in for more pain! Healing has not been this hard before a couple of hard days then it's on ward and up ward but this isn't the same deal at all. 6 months of be careful, be on gaurd work to know that they are doing the best things for you. Be happy you will be pleased later. Doesn't that sound a little funny! Oh well what is a rant without a story line. I wished I had of blogged Roland's eye surgery that would have made for a good history line later. He will need to always keep up with that information for the future and for medical matters. I have started taking some pills to help me calm down a bit seems I have stress in my life. Roland is talking about rebooking Hawaii again for next April. I think by then I might be able to see some day light. LOL Anyway I am off to do e-mail....Dear Lord be with us all for the days get harder the nights get longer and it never seems to end but in You we have hope so no matter what this life throughs at us with your guide we will be ready. I love you Lord. Even a prisoner can dream!